Change of template

hello ppl!

i realised my previous posts are really...
ah lian of the ulti-max.
well shall try to reduce that from happening,
it make me feel...retarded..

I just changed my template..
got sick n tired of my old template..
so make a lil change in it.

I hate changes,
especially in life.
but i guess, if you dont change it, it will change you.


and I just went to melbourne!
It was very fun!!!

more than what i experienced 2 years back!

we went to puffing billy to take harry potter like trains(ok not really alike)
philips island to see the penguins and koalas,
farm to feed cow, squeeze cow nipple to get cow milk, see sheeps goes naked..
queen vic market n south melbourne market to buy lotsa clothes..
eat korea food, chinese food, italian food..
swanston st, chinatown, city areas..
st kilda beach eat aust burgers and cake..
mrs marples to eat scones n ice cream..
pluck strawberries..


and alot more!!

so much fun over there.. that i can use words to describe..lolllllllll

pics may speak best but i rather post it to facebook when im free..



Well anyway,
been dancing for like dunno how many god damn years.. in 2004?
for the first 1 year b4 i join NRA i dun even think i'm dancing..
maybe i'm just swaying to the music n beat..
i dunno why i just dont understand the secret of it.
i just dont get it why my body doesnt really listen.

even till today.
i still question myself.

why is it that i can't speak to my soul anymore?
why is it that i can't hear my heart beat to the music?
why is it that i'm still not dancing?

i told myself ever since i join NRA,
i told everyone the same thing.
There's only 3 ways,
practice, practice, practice.

No doubt i'm slowing down,
No doubt i'm getting lazy.

Yet i dun wanna give up..
and i know i dun wan to.

I used to push everything to myself in the past.
I lean on everyone,
I pushed them away,
I pulled them close to me again,
I push myself to the corner of my imaginary room every night.
I blame myself,
I avoid myself,
I wasted time on myself.
I brood over the past to see how pity I am.
I cried into my soul in hoping to get satisfaction.

But it didn't worked out.
obviously.

But I learned.

They pushed me out,
They picked me up,
They saved me.
But I stand up,
I looked around,
And I walked out of the darkness,
All by myself.

I'm glad.

I learned.

If you focus what leave behind, you will never see what lies ahead.

It's now time to open my eyes and see what's waiting for me, all day long.